I Am Just Happy Being Alive

Time had elapsed quickly, and it was passing around 4:00 a.m. I was getting a little tired, so I went to my table to sit down to rest for a while. While I was relaxing blissfully, looking at people who were still dancing around and chattering away energetically, Rodrigo came to sit down beside me. He suddenly asked me, “What is your magic, Shogo? You know, actually, I’ve been drinking a lot tonight, but I can’t enjoy it fully like you. I don’t understand. You don’t drink any alcohol, but it seems to me that you are the happiest person in this evening. You look so bright and energetic. Also, you have spent a great time talking with beautiful women. You know, Shogo, I’m not drunk although I’ve drunk a lot. Please teach me how to be happy unrestrictedly like you.”

I was confused by his sudden remark and prattled, “I don’t know, Rodrigo. I can enjoy anything without alcohol. As you know, I don’t drink and don’t like alcohol. To be honest with you, I don’t like the taste of alcohol either. You want to know why I am so happy tonight, but I am sorry, I don’t know how to explain it, because I am just happy to be here, I am just happy with being alive, and I am just happy to see my friends again – that’s all, my friend. I don’t know.”

“You know, Shogo, you’ve had a serious illness. Remember, you came to Cancun about a year ago; you always went to a bathroom because of your stomach. But you enjoyed more than anybody that time as well. If I had your illness, I would be dejected, dispirited, and depressed. I couldn’t enjoy my life. But, Shogo, you seem not to care about your illness whatsoever – you enjoy life more than normal people, I mean healthy people. Sorry to say that, but I can’t stop wondering how you do it all the time.”


“I don’t know exactly what to say, but what I only know is I am just happy being alive. Moreover, I always try to enjoy life. I assume it’s because I am in Mexico and far away from Japan, which make my spirit free as a bird tonight.”

“I’d better try to be happy just being alive, as you said. Maybe, I should follow your example.”

Here Ramon came to my table to inform me that we had to go to the hotel. While Ramon was saying good-bye to everyone, delightful Henri skipped toward me and yelled at the top of his lungs, “Hey, my Shogo! Are you going with Ramon right now?”

“Hey Henri, you look so happy tonight. Yes, I have to go right now because I’m going to stay with Patricia’s parents.”

“Oh, it’s very sad news indeed because I want to talk to you anyway. Are you coming to the cruise party tomorrow?”

“Henri, I can’t because I have to go back to Mexico City tomorrow.”

“It’s heartbreaking, Shogo. Anyway, I want you to know I like you very much as a friend. Before meeting you, I already knew a lot about you as if you had been my friend in all my life, because Ramon always talks about you. You are Ramon’s best friend, which means that you are my friend, too. You are an exceptionally good person, as Ramon told me. Hope to see you again very soon. Please don’t change who you are, okay? Shogo, you are very good person, so please don’t change, my Shogo.”

Considered about You As a Special Bitch

I was thinking about Rosa’s friend, who has blonde hair and green eyes, “She is decidedly beautiful. I should talk to her. Tonight is Ramon’s wedding, so she allows me to kiss her, perhaps?” The idea of kissing her cheered me up to the God’s heaven, and I was joyfully strolling back to search for Rosa’s friend. While I was on my way to the open hall, Rosa called to me, “Shogo, come here to join us.” “What luck,” I thought.  I was just thinking to have an opportunity to have a talk with her friend, but the opportunity itself was coming to me! It was God, that I had no doubt – He had already prepared me for the stage, because the angels of heaven must have seen my optimistic attitude toward life, and my resolution to enjoy tonight to the fullest. I was ardently thanking God under my breath with happy tears on my eyes.

As soon as I sat down on a sofa beside Rosa, she told me, “Shogo, what do you think about my friend? She is very pretty, isn’t she? She told me that she likes you very much and wants to talk to you. She’s gone to a bathroom and will be back soon. Talk to her, Shogo, okay?” When she came back, I asked her to take a walk with me. As she heard my invitation, her face brightened; she gave me an amorous smile and was willing to go with me.

After I inflamed her with love, I decided to get some drink. While I was strolling around the garden, whistling, Ramon suddenly approached me and called to me excitedly, “Hey bitch, where have you been, man? I was looking for you everywhere, but I couldn’t find you. How’s it going? Have you enjoyed it so far?”

I nodded mysteriously with half-closed eyes and replied religiously, “Yap! Trust me, I’ve enjoyed more than you can imagine because God willing!”

“Ha-ha-ha, fucking Shogo, what did you do, man? By the way, did you talk to Rosa’s friend?”


“Oh, man, she is so hot and sexy. While I was dancing with Patricia, I couldn’t take my eyes off her with a tremendous erection, ha-ha-ha. My erection was glued to her cunt with an invisible cord, so to speak. Anyway, Rosa informed me that her friend likes you very much and wants to do something with you. That crazy hot blond cunt! You are fucking lucky, man! I really think you can easily fuck her, but remember, don’t do it beside my sleeping father, okay? Ha-ha-ha.”

“Indeed, I was with her before. You know, I mean alone.”

“Fucking Shogo! What happened?”

I gave him an indulgent smile, “You know, Ramon. I just sat down on the edge of Garden to look at the calm sea with her and made myself busy kissing her. While we were chattering away, she was constantly massaging my prick affectionately as though she were patting on her puppy’s head. I just let her touch my prick as long as she wanted and let my prick extend toward the heaven to say hello because tonight is your wedding day, ha-ha-ha.”

He was guffawing uncontrollably, “Fucking Shogo, you haven’t changed anything since I met you in Vancouver the first time. You always become a honey bitch when you see hot blond cunts. That’s why I’ve considered about you as my best friend and as a special bitch, ha-ha-ha. By the way, sorry man, I’ve been so busy, so I can’t spend much time with you. I really want to spend with you on my special day, but you know, I have to attend to and take care of a lot of shits. And needless to say, Henri has busied working on Fernanda. I think he’ll fuck her tonight, ha-ha-ha.”

“Good for him. I’ve started admiring his enthusiasms. He is obviously enjoying the party. I guess he’s enjoyed too much anyway.”

“Yeah, he is always like that. He is crazy, but he is a very good friend of mine, too. And I know you’ll like him, and Henri and you’ll become good friends to each other.”

I Have a Few Times Left

Seeking the Meaning of Life

In five days, I would have to go back to Japan to continue my empty and barren life again. I have to wake up 7:00 a.m. with a hysterical alarm clock every morning, take an oppressively crowded train to go to Sibuya Station, do what I do not want to do, pretend to obey my supervisor, and so on, such lifeless activities. My supervisor and my colleagues accused me of indiscretion because I told them that I would take a three-week vacation to go to Mexico. They said to me with a confounded expression on their faces, “Mr. Onoe, I just can’t believe you. I think apparently you don’t have any decency and responsibilities as mature people do because while everyone is working, you’re taking a vacation. Everyone has been working here longer than you, and on top of it all, you are new and have been working with us for only five months. I cannot believe how you dare to ask for taking such a long vacation.”

Japanese never change. They are just jealous of my free spirit and envy my free life. I know that at the bottom of their hearts, they secretly want to see the world, but they simply can’t do that because of fear of losing their jobs. And the worst part is that they never admit it because of their pride. What a bunch of vainglorious creatures! They are lamentably unable to realize one of important tools to improve themselves, experience. Just working five days a week like a machine for all their lives without experiences is just killing time. Making money and protecting their security might be good; however, without any enjoyment in one’s life, without any real friends in one’s life, and without any great adventures in one’s life – everything crumbles away from your fingers eventually. I have a few times left, so I should enjoy the rest of my time here at the most. Forget the inevitability of my return to Japan soon, but enjoy tonight at the most and thank to God for giving me the great opportunity to have this awesome experience.

Having Good Friends Is Everything

Seeking the Meaning of Life

Everyone started dancing. “I have never attended such an enchanting wedding in Japan,” I thought to myself. While everyone was dancing exuberantly, I rambled around the garden. The night was so calm, and it was a refreshing weather with a present breeze. The ardently incandescent stars were above me. I sauntered slowly with my hands in my pocket toward the end of garden in order to take a look at the beautiful night view over the town and the calm sea. The sound of gentle wave made me elated, and I lapsed into reverie for a while. I am definitely happy right now, and I am lucky to be Ramon’s friend to experience such an admirable wedding. In fact, this is my third time to come to Cancun because of him. He had a sumptuous apartment in Cancun two years ago, since his grandmother rented it for him for a year. Ramon had always invited me to come to Cancun to enjoy his apartment, and I had indeed gone to Cancun twice to enjoy staying there. I had always watched the beautiful sea from his apartment’s balcony; I had enjoyed swimming and sunbathing at the pool.

Japanese people think that if they want to go abroad to enjoy staying at a gorgeous hotel or have a grand time, they need money. Many Japanese have told me that they cannot go abroad so often like me because they do not have money. What ignorant people! They are apparently too busy making money and forget the most essential thing in one’s life: having good friends is everything. They know how to make money, but unfortunately, they do not know how to make good friends and how to build a good friendship. They have been totally blind not to realize the simple truth, making good friends is more important than just earning money. They never realize that I do not have money, but I have great friends – that is why I am able to go abroad often because my friends have always offered me to stay at their homes for gratis. I hope someday Japanese will realize that good friends can have the power to offer more great things than money can offer them.

The Biggest Ordeal in My Life

Seeking the Meaning of Life

The wedding ceremony was held in a Catholic church in Cancun. Ramon was nervous during the whole ceremony. After the ceremony, he disclosed to me in a tense emotional state, “Bitch, thanks for being a witness for my execution. Thank God, the worst part is over now.”

He made a sigh of cross over himself and continued, “We’re going to change the place to have a wedding party. I’m so sure, you’ll enjoy it there too much. But remember, don’t let your prick control you; you should control it – just behave yourself only tonight, ha-ha-ha. I have to confess that while I was swearing the eternal marriage at the altar, I almost felt like fleeing, because the foreboding of sleeping only with one woman for the rest of my fucking life made me frantic. But when I saw you beside me, somehow my nerve calmed down and gave me the courage to go through. Thank you very much for standing by my side for the biggest ordeal in my life, bitch!”

The wedding party was held in the colossal open garden right beside the sea. Rodrigo drove me to the place. I shared the table with Rodrigo, Daniel, Rosa, and Rosa’s friend. First, the dinner was served. After the dinner, Ramon’s family and Patricia’s family gathered around the center of the open hall and gave speeches. Both Ramon and Patricia mentioned my name during their speeches to show their appreciation for me coming to the wedding from Japan. And then the bride and the bridegroom started dancing to Mexican songs. Ramon was so excited, dancing madly, shaking his ass jubilantly, and making a silly face all the time. I’ve never seen him dancing so deliciously and couldn’t refrain from bursting out laughing. Ramon’s mother was standing to watch his dance beside me and saw me laughing uproariously; she could not refrain herself from bursting out laughing and joined my laughter delightedly.