I’m an Autodidact

Here I laughed at his perplexity and asked for a cigarette: “Give me a cigarette, Yoshi? Thanks.”

“I have a job and am working for a company, but it’s not important and nothing to talk about – for the sake of earning money, I’m just doing it. The main thing is writing. I’m writing in English, so that I’ll have a lot of opportunities to find publishers around the world. Also, I think Japanese can’t understand my book, like you don’t comprehend what I’m talking about right now.”

“I still don’t understand what you mean, Shogo. Who asked you to write the book? Do you have somebody to check your English? Who are you working for?”

“No, I am not working for anybody, and nobody asked me to write either. I am working for myself. I want to be an artist. I’m pretty sure that you don’t understand it either because, being Japanese, you can only comprehend how to go to work every day. I know art is like a trash to you. No, nobody checks my English because I’m an autodidact. I’m pretty sure too, being Japanese, that you don’t understand the way of one educating himself.”

He started getting irritated and threw the cigarette on the side work, “Shogo, you’re talking to me condescendingly. What’s wrong with being Japanese? I like Japan and like the Japanese way of life so much. I think you are screwy, because you think you can educate yourself without anyone’s instruction. You simply can’t do that if you really want to write books. First of all, you have to learn how to write, edit, and organize from some experts. That’s why we have teachers. I really don’t comprehend what you have in your mind. Furthermore, I like my job and am satisfied with my life. I have a good job and work five days a week, because now Japanese economic situation is bad, so some of my friends can’t work five days a week. Therefore, I am lucky to have the steady job. Besides, I’m interested in politics and am studying Japanese politics now. Maybe, you cannot understand that way.”

I Am Hopelessly Different

A break time is coming! It is my best time of a day at the office. My colleagues always make groups to have lunch together, which makes me nauseated. They are not able to enjoy their break time by themselves, because they are constantly worried if they do not eat together, they might be missing precious information about the latest job news; they are constantly worried if they do not eat together, they might be outsiders. They constantly think about job conditions, poor Japanese! Of course, I am always alone and enjoy being free from my nauseating colleagues and appreciate having my own time. They occasionally ask me to join them to eat lunch together because they are very curious about me. They know that I have knocked about the world a wee bit and can speak English fluently as well as a touch of Spanish. They feel that I am completely different from ordinary Japanese. To tell the truth, I am hopelessly different from them and have nothing in common with them. I even do not know how to talk with them and what subjects I should talk about. I know that if I let myself have a lunch with them, they will only talk about a job, nothing more and nothing less, because they do not know how to enjoy their lives; they only know how to work five days a week like a robot. Their only link to each other at the office is the job, so they have no choice but to always talk about the job.

As soon as my lunch break comes, I dash out of the office to avoid being invited to have a lunch with them. I always have a single idea – go to Starbucks to read a book to improve myself. I have been reading the important book, The Growth of Soil. I am so immersed in Hamsun’s beautiful world and am aware that I am participating in the era of human degeneration. Naturally, I forgot about going back to the office. My usual break time is from 1:00 p.m. to 2:00 p.m., but when I realized it, it was already past 2:30 p.m.

Dear Readers

I am flying to Mexico and might not update new posts for a while, but I will try do my best to share my new adventure with you!

Life begins anew, all over again. Each day is a fresh new day to live and enjoy. While being on my part time job yesterday, I felt and completely re-realized that I am nothing to do with my own country and countrymen. The simple fact that I am cut off from Japan and wish I will never return. I have never wanted to return to Japan. I am completely identified with Mexico and start considering I should become Mexican citizen. Japan is like a foreign world to me. I have already become thoroughly imbued with the Mexican Spirit and way of living, don’t you know, that my own country seems very bizarre to me. I see it with Mexican eyes, and it looks awful, very terrible to me.

I am happy to fly to Mexico tonight and happy to see my Mexican friends again.

One’s Own Right

I just want to say to all of you here: For God`s sake, do not be coward and do not be submissive! You should fight your government and society for your own right, for we know that they are wrong and impose logical trash on us. When I was trapped in Japan, my voice was not heard, and I wanted to do a lot of things, but I was restricted by others, since in Japan mediocrities are too strong, and the herd instinct spreads out everywhere like a blanket. By Jove, I had neglected to use my own right in my life; however, for heaven’s sake, I have realized and waken up that I must fight for what I faithfully believe in and must use my right to be heard my voice, because I am not a chip of wood; I am a human being with feelings. I had suffered for a long time more than necessary, but I had endured and had not been asleep. Thank God, I have learned the most essential thing: who I am, and what I must do. I have discovered that I have only one weapon on me, but it is the strongest weapon on this earth: my pen. And even my pen is stronger than atomic bombs. I have made a sacrosanct vow to myself: I will fight for my dear life with my pen. As a matter of fact, I have written the book “Liberation – Seeking the Meaning of Life, which I exploded. I am pretty sure that my book will make a lot of commotions all over the world, but if not, I would deeply regret that I did not put enough dynamites in my book.

Righteous Outrage

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERAJorge Veloz and I hereby declare that we are doing our very best to plant the Seed of Change into men’s heart along this glorious year and scatter the Seed of Change all over the world, so that we are able to become human beings again and bring a justice into a right place. Furthermore, we will try to eradicate injustices throughout the world with all our might, so that people will be happy and be able to enjoy their lives. We intend to be much stronger and are forever ready to fight for justice, human right, individuality, and freedom.

We believe that the current society system is not merely an injustice, but, beyond all doubt, a gross injustice. And we simply do not allow people to practise a gross injustice anymore – we just cannot. So long as there shall exist, by a ram logic of government and education, a social condemnation which, the midst of civilization, artificially creates a modern slavery, and complicates a human life by superficial technology; so long as three problems of the century – the degradation of man and woman, the poverty, the social injustice – are not solved; in other words, and from a still broader view point of view, so long as ignorance and misery remain on earth, there should be a more man like us to fight for a human justice – it is a good fight and worthwhile.

Anger maybe foolish and absurd, and one may be wrongly irritated, but a man never feels outraged unless in some respect he is fundamentally right. We have felt outraged.

January 4, 2013

Jorge Veloz and Shogo Onoe