He is lapsing into silence for a while with his hands in his pockets. I know why he is being silent; he is just moved by his own speech. It happens all the time after he gives a passionate speech. In fact, I just witnessed the same profound silence yesterday after he gave me the unnecessary farewell speech at his aunt’s house. Sure enough, two big tears are trickling down his cheeks. I am certain that right now he is proud of himself beyond human imagination; he is comparing himself with Napoleon, perhaps? At any rate, he is a sensualist in toto, so I can expect anything from him.
After he tastes his triumph moment enough, he keeps the ball rolling with a glint of longing on his eyes: “You know, amigo, I am a dreamer. I’ve always dreamt about better Mexico and ponder over how to improve current situations, because a great deal of people are unemployed right now in Mexico. It’s not fair for people who don’t have enough money to attend university. In Mexico people must graduate university if they want to have a job. I just can’t accept this bull-shit. I love my fatherland and fellow countrymen very much; I can’t watch my fellow countrymen suffering in destitute. I can’t close my eyes before the atrocious injustice, you know…. You can say I am a true patriot. Actually, I am more than that: I am the champion of my fatherland. Don’t tell anyone, Shogo, this is between you and me, okay? I have to confess that I always mull on how to serve my poor fellow countrymen and always shed tears for the fact that I’m not in the position to help them right now before retiring. That’s why I’ve been working persistently, as Heracles was assigned twelve labors and pushing myself to the limit in order to see my possibility, as Theseus preferred to take the land route from Troezen to Athens in order to go through numerous adventures and obstacles. I have a big dream, you know, I really have a humongous dream, namely, starting my own company to contribute job positions toward my poor fellow countrymen. I’ve realized as lucidly as Buddha in the hour of his enlightening that helping my fellow countrymen and fighting for justice is the main mission in my life. It is a gigantic task for me and besides, I know from the bottom of my heart that it’ll take my whole lifetime to serve for my fellow countrymen though. I just want you to know that I’m forever ready at their disposal. What is more, I’ve considered about building a cathedral as headquarter for my mission. And I’ve constantly daydreamt that someday I’ll provide job positions to poor fellows from a high altar, like a magnanimous pope. I’ve tried to enjoy every single process for my mission and worked diligently, so that the day will eventually come on earth that every single mistreated fellow in Mexico will jubilantly shout ‘Hurrah’ at Jorge Veloz, and they’ll burst into a song to rejoice the heart with gratitude tears in their eyes, as if the heaven split open and Messiah descended from the mountaintop. Please don’t think I’m a romantic moonstruck, Shogo; on the contrary, I sincerely want to plant the seed of hope into Mexican soil. I honestly wish to see the world and life, as I saw them when I was a child. That’s all, amigo.”