Becoming a Beginner Again


Last time I wrote a book was almost 10 years ago. And somehow, I had lost my passion and stopped writing completely. I did not understand why I stopped writing since writing has been my mission in my life and I really love it. All my friends had asked me why I stopped writing books and told me that I wasn’t happy because I had stopped writing books. And they kept on telling me that it did not matter where I lived in or what kinds of situation I was in – I just need to write something, then I would be happy again. However, I had been depressed for years – I had completely lost my passion and had no energy left for writing. I had just frittered my time away.

After 10 years of wasting my time, I have re-realized that without writing books, I would be miserable forever and it would no point for keep on living. Hence, I have decided to start writing a new book again. The good thing is that my passion for reading books has returned, I have started reading books with joy, and I have been happier and happier, day by day. I have determined to start writing the new book from the January 1 on; however, I have not written any single line yet.

Before getting started writing my first book, I was not able to write any single line in my book almost for 8 years. I had just read books like a possessed so that I could improve myself and walked on streets for 4 hours every single day so that I could hopefully get some ideas for my book, which I called meditation walk. After 8 years of struggle, I finally wrote the very first line in my book. If one was not able to write any single line in his book almost for a decade, he would be paranoid and worried that he would be unable to write any single line next day. So, naturally he would write until he would be exhausted and collapsed. I believe that I had thought of only one thing for 8 years: what I would write in my book – that is why I got inspiration to begin writing the book after 8 years of struggle. What I have learned from this lesson is that inspiration will not come suddenly; it will come because of daily practice, learning, and thinking with earnest effort and consistency.

The funny thing is that I have now become a beginner again which means that I am not able to write any single line in the new book. Once again, I am always reading books and walking on streets to get inspired to write the book. I need another 8 years to be able to write a very first line in the book, perhaps? The good thing is that I did not waste another 10 years to decide to write a new book, so I will enjoy the process in writing a very first line in my new book and enjoy ambling on streets under the sun with my hands in my pocket. Perhaps, I will get inspired and write the book like a madman tomorrow? Only God knows.

4 thoughts on “Becoming a Beginner Again”

  1. Thank you for sharing. I can identify with you. It often seems as if the muse is asleep and we can’t get started. I have found that I often procrastinate and don’t get started. But, for me, I have also found that belonging to a writers’ group – where we are expected to share what we are working on – works. Their encouragement has often given me the impetus for writing the next chapter.

  2. It is good to know that you have the same experience as me, Keith! Moreover, thank you so much for giving me the tip to be inspired. Actually, I don’t belong to any wrtiers’ group and have been trying to write books alone, that is quite a lonely journey. Hence, I really need someone to talk about arts and books sometimes. Please let me know how I can find writer’s group, for I can share my passion for writing with someone and can be inspired.

    1. For starters, Shogo, maybe you could do a search on the internet for groups that might be in your area. Or you might look in a local newspaper, or inquire at a local library. Sharing with a writers’ group can be encouraging and challenging, helping us to take small steps to achieve our writing goals. Happy hunting for a group!

  3. Thanks for helping me, Keith! I will search for writer’s group on the internet, as you suggested!
    Hope that I can find the right one. We should support and encourage each other to keep writing and make our dreams come true, Keith! Have a creative day, cheers!

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