I Am Just Happy Being Alive

Time had elapsed quickly, and it was passing around 4:00 a.m. I was getting a little tired, so I went to my table to sit down to rest for a while. While I was relaxing blissfully, looking at people who were still dancing around and chattering away energetically, Rodrigo came to sit down beside me. He suddenly asked me, “What is your magic, Shogo? You know, actually, I’ve been drinking a lot tonight, but I can’t enjoy it fully like you. I don’t understand. You don’t drink any alcohol, but it seems to me that you are the happiest person in this evening. You look so bright and energetic. Also, you have spent a great time talking with beautiful women. You know, Shogo, I’m not drunk although I’ve drunk a lot. Please teach me how to be happy unrestrictedly like you.”

I was confused by his sudden remark and prattled, “I don’t know, Rodrigo. I can enjoy anything without alcohol. As you know, I don’t drink and don’t like alcohol. To be honest with you, I don’t like the taste of alcohol either. You want to know why I am so happy tonight, but I am sorry, I don’t know how to explain it, because I am just happy to be here, I am just happy with being alive, and I am just happy to see my friends again – that’s all, my friend. I don’t know.”

“You know, Shogo, you’ve had a serious illness. Remember, you came to Cancun about a year ago; you always went to a bathroom because of your stomach. But you enjoyed more than anybody that time as well. If I had your illness, I would be dejected, dispirited, and depressed. I couldn’t enjoy my life. But, Shogo, you seem not to care about your illness whatsoever – you enjoy life more than normal people, I mean healthy people. Sorry to say that, but I can’t stop wondering how you do it all the time.”


“I don’t know exactly what to say, but what I only know is I am just happy being alive. Moreover, I always try to enjoy life. I assume it’s because I am in Mexico and far away from Japan, which make my spirit free as a bird tonight.”

“I’d better try to be happy just being alive, as you said. Maybe, I should follow your example.”

Here Ramon came to my table to inform me that we had to go to the hotel. While Ramon was saying good-bye to everyone, delightful Henri skipped toward me and yelled at the top of his lungs, “Hey, my Shogo! Are you going with Ramon right now?”

“Hey Henri, you look so happy tonight. Yes, I have to go right now because I’m going to stay with Patricia’s parents.”

“Oh, it’s very sad news indeed because I want to talk to you anyway. Are you coming to the cruise party tomorrow?”

“Henri, I can’t because I have to go back to Mexico City tomorrow.”

“It’s heartbreaking, Shogo. Anyway, I want you to know I like you very much as a friend. Before meeting you, I already knew a lot about you as if you had been my friend in all my life, because Ramon always talks about you. You are Ramon’s best friend, which means that you are my friend, too. You are an exceptionally good person, as Ramon told me. Hope to see you again very soon. Please don’t change who you are, okay? Shogo, you are very good person, so please don’t change, my Shogo.”

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