You’re Afraid of Writing

He is shaking his head, “No, no, Shogo. Three years ago or two years ago, you said these things – I believed you. But now I don’t believe you, because everyone knows your English is great; you’ve studied hard these past nine years, so I assume you have enough knowledge to write; you’ve traveled around and gained a great deal of experiences. I know you are ready to write. I sometimes wonder when Shogo is really going to get started or wonder if Shogo might never start writing. I think you are scared of writing.”

I am a bit agitated at his direct affront and defend myself involuntarily, “Gerardo, listen. I’m not scared of writing, as you said. You’re definitely on the wrong track of thinking in that way. No, I’m just waiting for the right moment to write, and every writer needs enlightenment. Besides, I really need more study and research to get started. I know what I’m doing. As you know, I’ve struggled in vain to write for years, because I need something more, namely, my own style and my own voice. I’ve been trying to figure them out for years. Thus, just wait patiently and give me the time to understand myself. As soon as I find them, I’ll start writing, that I can promise you; however, I can’t promise you when. Meanwhile, let me do it on my own way, and I’ll read more books.”

He is not convinced, “But, Shogo, even if you can’t figure out your style or your voice, you should write something. Let’s say, just two hours per day. You know, you can’t write a book without practicing. So, just try to write something tomorrow. Furthermore, I really think you don’t need to read books anymore because you’ve already read a great deal of books. Shogo, you’ve read books these past nine years. I really think you’re afraid of writing. Maybe, you don’t want to be disappointed in yourself. I really think so, man. If you want to read more, it’s okay with me, but please start writing something.”

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